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A carefully designed four-day experience
Built around a single psilocybin truffle ceremony, held by three facilitators who built this because they wanted it to exist. Every element, from the food, the music, the order of the days, is chosen for a reason.
The design is the product.
Why women first?
The first retreat is open to women identifying as such. That is a deliberate choice, not a default. Psychedelic experiences ask a lot of you. They ask you to stop performing, stop managing, stop holding the edges of yourself in place. That kind of surrender requires real trust in the people around you.
Same-gender containers build faster, go deeper, and hold differently. That is not just our intuition, it is what participants and researchers consistently report. When the social calculus of a mixed room is taken off the table, the stage is yours. We are also three women who built this from our own experience of wanting exactly this and not finding it. We know this space from the inside and this is the most grounded place we could begin from.
Future retreats will open up and explore different settings and formats. For now, this is where we are, and we think it is exactly right.
Agenda
Thursday: Welcome
You arrive in the afternoon. Settle into your room, walk the property in silence, meet the group at the welcome dinner. The first evening is an opening circle: intentions, ground rules, introductions. We start with you.
Friday: Ceremony
This is the day. The morning begins slowly. Breathwork with Natalie, barefoot walk, intention ritual, time for questions. Ceremony opens with cacao. Four to six hours of curated music, movement, and facilitator presence. Evening is quiet, light food, rest.
Saturday: Integration
The after-morning is for meaning. Integration breathwork, sharing circle, journaling, free time in the afternoon to walk or rest. Evening: creative expression or voice activation, dinner, processing.
Sunday: Departure
Closing circle, farewell breakfast, follow-up schedule, departure.
Your own space.
A barn in the Dutch countryside near Heinkenszand, two hours from Amsterdam, far enough to feel like somewhere else.
Private rooms, private bathrooms. Room to breathe and do your work.
A ceremonial space built for the moment. Lots of indoor and outdoor space for the moments when you need to be alone.
Time for yourself is built into the program. Your room and the outdoor space exist so you can be with what you came here for.
We arrange transport to and from Amsterdam Schiphol, so the only thing you need to think about is packing.
This is our first retreat. We are offering a founding cohort price in exchange for honest feedback and, where you are willing, a testimonial. The experience itself is not reduced. The care, the facilitation, the safety protocols, and the venue are exactly what every future retreat will be built on.
Payment details and instalment options are shared after your application is accepted.
IS THIS FOR YOU
If you've been thinking about this for a while.
You do not need prior experience, but you do need to be ready to show up honestly, follow the preparation guidelines, and engage with what comes up, before, during, and after.
The founding retreat is open to women and FLINTA only.
You are a good fit if you are in your late twenties to mid-forties, professionally grounded, and have been sitting with this curiosity for a while. Maybe you have tried therapy, meditation, or coaching and something still feels stuck. Maybe you simply want to understand yourself better and this feels like the moment. You'll bring your own intentions, your own questions, your own topics. The intake process is designed to understand those before you arrive, so the experience can meet you where you actually are.
A note on screening.
We screen every applicant carefully. We cannot safely hold people with a personal or family history of psychosis or schizophrenia, those currently on SSRIs, lithium, or MAOIs, those with active suicidal ideation, or anyone under 21. These are the conditions under which we can hold this safely.
If you are unsure whether any of this applies to you, apply anyway and we will work through it together on the screening call.
Safety at Clear Field is the thing every other decision is built around.
When safety is handled, you can stop managing and give all of your attention to what you came here for.
The dose
We work with a maximum of a 1g dose, chosen deliberately. A lower dose reduces intensity without eliminating depth. It keeps you oriented enough to work with what comes up, without losing your footing. We are here to open a door and help you walk through it.
The facilitation ratio
One facilitator for every three participants throughout the ceremony. Someone is always close, always available, and never stretched too thin to notice what you need.
Medical screening
Every participant is screened across four dimensions before being accepted: biological, psychological, social, and lifestyle. Hard exclusions apply, and if anything is unclear, we talk it through personally before making a decision.
The venue
The retreat location in Heinkenszand is 30 minutes from a hospital. Emergency protocols are in place and reviewed before every retreat. We hope never to use them, but we are prepared to.
Preparation and the weeks after
A prepared nervous system responds differently. That is why we run a preparation workshop, send dietary guidelines, and work through intention-setting before you arrive — so you get there ready, not anxious. And what surfaces after the ceremony needs somewhere to go. The group calls at week 1 and week 4 make sure you are not left to navigate that alone.
You should not have to hope you are safe. You should know it.
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